Backlash

I have to be honest. I know I wrote this. I have no idea when…it is my stab at fiction. Here we go.

What do you do when you hit the bottom? When all of the things you knew to be certain are pulled out from under you in one swift jerk? When life as you knew it, and loved it for that fact, is over? These questions plague me. They give me no rest.

Trisha was my life. She was all a man could want in a woman and more. A friend. A lover. A pillar of strength. A place of refuge. No obstacle was too tall while she loved me. No force to great to stop the man she believed in, simply because she believed.

They knew this, of course. They knew she was my weakness, but I would never call her that. She was too good for that. But, they took her to get to me. They took the future that we had together and the crushed it into dust. For what? I became more than they anticipated. I posed a threat to their comfort. They assumed by taking her, they would crack me…it ain’t gonna be that easy.

An imposing man sat behind a large desk. One couldn’t pinpoint which was more imposing: the wrinkled face with a cigar hanging out of his mouth, or the 9mm semi automatic pistol sitting on the desk beside him. No other crime lord was as respected or as feared as he.

“Have we cleared up all of our problems?”

“Almost, sir.”

“Almost?” The sound of anger rose in his throat. The scowl deepened as he folded his hands over in front of his mouth. His name was Leoni. Giuseppe Leoni.

“Sanderson’s house was burned as you instructed. All occupants were shot as you told us to do. Sanderson, his wife, and two house guests. Our man on the inside was there when the fire department sifted through the ashes. All four were shot, only three bodies were found. Sanderson is missing, but couldn’t have gotten far. He was shot through the heart. I watched him go down myself.”

“We can’t afford to work on assumptions, Mr. Elias.”

“That is true sir, but Sanderson was a failed project. He could not have withstood a point blank shot to the heart. No one could.”

“I admire your certainty Mr. Elias, but I do not share it. Failed project or none, find me Sanderson’s body. If you do not, it will be your life that takes his place.” Leoni drove a closed fist down into the top of his desk as he spoke those words. “You are dismissed.”

Leoni rose from his desk. His windows looked out over the city. Somewhere, he was certain Michael Sanderson was waiting. A failed project…that was yet to be seen

Mercury City was a thriving metropolis. Business was good. So good in fact, decent people with any brains stayed home in the evenings, because crime was just as good as business. Muggings, rape, and assault were common place. Men like Leoni thrived off of this. The public simply didn’t know it.

His empire was built on the façade of hard work and dignity.

Out for a walk

I’m out for a walk this evening. It’s beautiful. Temperatures are not too high. It’s not too cold. It’s just about how Goldilocks would like it.

I’m doing my best to stay active. Not just because of Quarantine, but because it’s a good way to be. It has a lot of benefits, a few of which I’d like to share here:

1. I like that I can go out every day for half an hour and my performance depends completely on me. I’m not competing with anyone else. I get done what I set out to get done. I choose to do this for the betterment of my own health. This, for me, is one of the best things I can do.

2. No where else do I get the opportunity to think as clearly and breathe as deeply as I do on a walk. I love getting a chance to get my body moving and let my brain explore new thoughts and ideas. Sometimes new ideas refuse to show up, but I am giving them the opportunity to do just that. More often than not they appear.

3. I like the fact that I’m out where very few people are. I don’t often see people out in my neighborhood taking advantage of the beautiful weather. It’s nice to be out here where it is calm and beautiful and peaceful all at the same time.

4. I do it because it’s awesome.

How long has it been since you’ve been on a walk yourself? It’s great exercise, it’s great time to think, and it’s great time just to be out in the world God has made. I challenge you to get out and do the same. What’s stopping you?

Thankful for

My wife and son. When this year started I would not have believed that we would all be working from home like this and that I would be home full time for over a month. Who actually thought this could happen.

I am not thankful for the virus. However, I am thankful that when hard times come I have two amazing people to hunker down with.

I pray that wherever you are that you are safe and surrounded with those you love.

The One That Got Away – Song Audio

Verse 1

Sitting in the back of the chapel, hid where no one sees. It is hard to take in what’s happening in front of me.You look just like an angel standing in your dress. I’m here speechless, I have to confess. Because I am not dressed in my tux, standing next to you and some other guy will go with you on our honeymoon.

Chorus

It is all my fault that you chose not to stay and it has never been more clear than it is today. I have watched you all this while wearing that smile, and I die inside because You are the one that got away.

Verse 2

I wasn’t surprised the day you left though my heart was torn in two. It took a while to see that I was no good for you. I wish I could go back in time and be a different man, but sometimes its too late when you finally understand that you danced with an angel who had come down to earth and never took the time to really see her worth.

Chorus

It is all my fault that you chose not to stay and it has never been more clear than it is today. I have watched you all this while wearing that smile, and I die inside because You are the one that got away.

Tag

I am glad that he could give you what I could never give and I pray that you find happiness for as long as you live.

Chorus

It is all my fault that you chose not to stay and it has never been more clear than it is today. I have watched you all this while wearing that smile, and I die inside because You are the one that got away.