Day 71 – Week 11

I have made it 71 days and have accomplished all of the daily goals I have set out to accomplish. For the majority of days I have kept my head down and been able to finish everything with relative ease. Today has been harder.

If you read my post yesterday, I have added two items to my list of daily tasks. This has unsettled the rhythm I have been in and I have been struggling with how to get things done. I am getting through them. The big one I have yet to accomplish is the 1000 words I have set out to write daily. There is still several hours before bed though, so I should get there.

This is another reason I am discovering change to be hard. Once you have yourself set in a habit or routine, breaking it can be a challenge. Even if you are adjusting it to add more cool stuff it. It is still a change and it still takes adjustment. I know I can’t be the only one that struggles with this.

I am also struggling today because I gained 3 pounds over the last couple of days. I have stayed in my calories and I still put pounds back on. I know it is not permanent and has happened all throughout this journey, but it is still discouraging. I have gotten to where I want to weigh in every morning to see my progress. It is a real mojo killer to see the scale go up.

All of that said, the goal still remains. I will make it to 100 days and I will accomplish the goals I have set before me. The results I achieve from pursuing these actions have to be the extra. I am doing the tasks because they are worth doing. I know they will eventually take me to where I want to go. But, even when I get there (lose the weight, write the book, etc.) there will still be more goals to pursue.

I am in this for the long haul. I am in this for the process. That is what makes this time different.

Why change is hard

I know why change is hard. Or, at least I have an idea. The actual action of change is relatively easy. Identifying the desired change and what the end goal is…that is the hard part.

Unless you identify a specific plan, how are you going to change? It takes time. Wrestling through this is where the bulk of the work takes place. You have to move from general ideas to specific details that can lead you from where you are to where you want to go.

For me, I had been wrestling with the changes I wanted to make for several months. It all came to a head in the evening of September 11th. For the first time I was able to write down exactly what I wanted.

I knew I wanted to lose weight, but until then I hadn’t clearly articulated how I was going to achieve it or when. By identifying what I was going to do and when I was going to achieve it, I started moving forward.

As I mentioned a few days ago, I have started wrestling through the next set of changes and goals I want to achieve. So, I am going to send this list out into the universe and start working the plan to get them achieved.

Along with the original seven goals I have set out, I plan to add the following to my daily/overall list:

1. Write 1000+ words per day on a novel project. I will start this tomorrow, November 21st and continue for the remaining 30 days of my 100 Day Strong journey.

2. Along with my personal goals, I have some work related goals I need to focus this same kind of energy on. On my workdays I will dedicate 30 minutes daily to these trainings. This is my goal to begin with. I will adjust this as I move forward. I will being this tomorrow as well.

This won’t be the last time I make adjustments. The overall goal is to make progress a lifestyle. I plan to iterate on that theme from now on.

Learning What Actually Is

Have you ever had one of those experiences where you thought you knew what was going on? Where you were certain how the world works? Only to find out later you didn’t know the topic at all? Yeah, I have had some realizations over the past 69 days that feel just like that.

First, I have believed, for sometime that I need to read more, but that there wasn’t enough time in the day. I had so many other competing priorities, I just couldn’t take the time to get this one done. False.

Over the past 69 days I have read six books and I’m in the process of reading three others. I had to find the way that it worked for me. Audiobooks are where it’s at. I no longer have an excuse.

Second, you can actually lose weight while eating food you like. I don’t know why I struggled with this for so many years. Just because it tastes good doesn’t mean you have to eat a ton of it. Also, you can still get full and stay within calories. This may not be ground shaking from any of you, but it blows my mind.

The last epiphany I will share today is around working out. For a long time I thought I had to lift the heaviest things and kill myself to get in shape. Nope. I need to lift enough to push myself, but I have nothing strength wise to prove. Slow and steady will maintain what I have and keep me strong.

Progress really is predicated on seeing things clearly and executing on what actually is. As I have demystified these hazy areas, I have found success. It makes me want to work even harder to find more success.

This really is getting fun.

The Mirror and The Scale

I spent a lot of years joking that the mirror hated me or that the scales were off. I weighed more than I was comfortable with and, instead of addressing it, I made excuses and tried to joke it away. But, it only got worse.

The old example of boiling a frog comes to mind here. Apparently, if you put a frog in hot water, it will jump out. However, if you put it in cold water, and slowly raise the temperature, it will boil to death and not know it. I did not realize how uncomfortable I had become because it happened over a long period of time.

Somewhere in the back of my mind, I knew what I needed to do. I knew that I had to take progressive steps to overcome this issue in my life. However, I was unwilling to do so for quite some time. That all changed 68 days ago.

The left is day 68. The right was early this summer.

I am currently down 29 pounds since September 12. There hasn’t been any magic. I started counting calories, and watching my macros. Along with this, I have maintained a very steady exercise routine.

The things I’ve been doing are not complex. They are consistent. That has made all the difference. It took me a long time to gain the weight. I expect it to take a while to get into the shape I want to be. That is OK.

The mirror and the scale are truth tellers. From here on out, I want to live in the truth. It is the better way to be.

In Search Of…

It is day 67 and I am wrestling with something. I have been achieving the goals on my list. I have made great strides in my health and in my learning. However, should I be doing more?

The beauty of the list that I wrote is it is keeping me accountable. For 67 days now I have accomplished each to do item I have written down. But…part of me is still unsatisfied. I can feel there is more to be done, but what?

The hard part of setting goals is choosing what they should be. I had the seven goals currently on the List picked out for weeks before I started. I knew inside that these were the things that I wanted to accomplish, so when it was time to start I set out with a fire.

Knowing that something else needs to be added is driving self examination. So, what am I going to add to the list? I’m not there yet, but! I am setting a deadline. By this coming Sunday I will know what my options are and will choose what needs to be added. The deadline has worked for my other tasks. I expect it to work for this one too.

This is my stake in the sand. I know there is more to be done. I intend to find it.