Trusting to jump

Trust God from the bottom of your heart; 
   don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; 
   he’s the one who will keep you on track. – Proverbs 3:5-6 (The Message)

I love being a dad. Playing with my boy is one of the coolest things ever. I get to see life through the his eyes. I get to marvel at things just like he does. That included freaking out a little bit when he started climbing the furniture. We knew it was coming, but it still took us by surprise when he would yell across the house for help because he had climbed up on his changing table and couldn’t get down. That seems like forever ago.

Marixa sent me a picture once while I was at work. She came into our bedroom and this boy was scaling the front of our dresser like an expert climber scales a cliff. He must have been two years old. He decided that he wanted the remote control for the TV and nothing was going to deter him from getting it. The remotes were over 5 feet off the ground. I remember it made me laugh.

Along with climbing he started playing a new game: jump and let daddy catch me. He would climb up on a steamer trunk that we had in our living room, make sure I am in position, and the fling himself off of it as best he could. (At that point He hadn’t quite figured out how to jump yet, but throwing himself he had gotten quite good at.)

He did this repeatedly. Climb up, smile, fling himself into my arms, laugh and do it all over again. It was often a highlight of my day because I knew that my son trusted me to catch him. He still knows to this day that his daddy won’t let him fall.

I remember a cruise we went on when he was one. We found ourselves on a beach in Progresso on the Yucatan peninsula in southern Mexico. It was his first trip to the beach. He loved it. He played in the water, ate some sand (gross, but true), and hung out in the water with me and Marixa and our friends who we were traveling with.

I was playing with him in the ocean and began to toss him up into the air. He squealed with delight. The higher I tossed him the harder he laughed. I tossed him up until my shoulders got too tired. He absolutely loved it. Just like later when he would jump off the table, he knew that his daddy would catch him and everything was ok.

The part my boy didn’t know is that his daddy helped control the circumstances. I wouldn’t let him jump to me from just anything because I wanted to ensure that I could catch him. When I tossed him up in the air I made sure not to toss him higher than I could have compensated for on the ground. While he trusts me, I am constantly working to keep and enlarge that trust. I don’t want to let him fall or let him down. It is just not an option.

In the same way, we have a Heavenly Father who is in control of all of the circumstances. The bible tells us that all things work together for the good of those who love God. It doesn’t say that all things are going to be easy, but it does say it works for our good. We have a Father that we can trust. When we trust him and jump to him and he will catch us. He won’t let us fall.

So, why do we have such a hard time trusting him with our lives? Why do we fight so hard to stay in control? I don’t have an answer to those questions, but I do know this: If My boy can trust me to catch him, I can trust God to catch me. He loves me and he wants the best for me. No, jumping is not easy, but trusting is a choice. I don’t have to understand it. If I know God wants me to jump, I choose to trust. I know He will catch me.

Thank you so much for the…

Yesterday I had to do something that I don’t normally do. I had to phone a friend for help. I needed him to take care of something for me. Something that wasn’t his to do. I made the call. He responded. That’s what friends do.

I am so blessed to have friends in my life like this. People that you can call at a moments notice who will help. People who will stand in the gap for you. People who will help you just because you are friends. People who are just as close as family even though you are not related.

So, to those of you who are in this category, thank you so much for the honor of being your friend. You are there for me and I will be there for you. I appreciate you more than I know how to express. I love you more than I know how to say. God blessed me when he brought you into my life.

Thank you for being my friend.

More – Song Lyrics

I have met more than one person who has lost hope. I penned this in an attempt to empathize. Lord help us long before we ever feel this way.

Chorus

There has to be more to this life more than just the struggle to survive. There has to be more from the days I have seen. There has to be more to me.

Verse 1

I’m going 90 miles an hour, the way these days go by leaves you spinning in circles sick from the ride. The faster that I go, the more important things I miss. This can’t go on forever, I can’t keep up like this.

Chorus

There has to be more to this life more than just the struggle to survive. There has to be more from the days I have seen. There has to be more to me.

Verse 2

When you look you see a stranger…my face is just a shell. No one else has noticed, but you know me too well. The light that shone inside me has dwindled to a spark. Who knows how long it will be before it all goes dark?

Chorus

There has to be more to this life more than just the struggle to survive. There has to be more from the days I have seen. There has to be more to me.

Bridge

Can you save me from this ride? Take this fear from me? Can you bring me anything to curb the insanity?

Chorus

There has to be more to this life more than just the struggle to survive. There has to be more from the days I have seen. There has to be more to me.

Anything For You – Song Lyrics

I wrote part of this song for Marixa on her 25th birthday. A few years have passed between then and now and I realized something about the song…I will still do anything for this amazing woman.

I had to give the verses a redo. I thought I knew how I felt about her at 25. Now I know, I have so much deeper to fall…and there is no end in sight.

Verse 1

There are times when I say I love you that three words just aren’t enough to describe what I feel inside and how you mean so much. You are the smile in every morning that sends me on my way. You are the arms there to hold me at the end of the day.

I am so thankful for you.

Chorus

I would do anything, anything for you. I would swim the deepest ocean just to be with you. I would do anything, anything for you. I would climb the highest mountain just to make your dreams come true. Baby, anything for you.

Verse 2

With every day that I spend with you I fall so much deeper in to this wonderful world we’ve made as lovers and as friends. Baby take my hand. Come walk along with me. For all of my days You are the only one I need.

My darling how I love you.

Chorus

I would do anything, anything for you. I would swim the deepest ocean just to be with you. I would do anything, anything for you. I would climb the highest mountain just to make your dreams come true. Baby, anything for you.

Chorus

I would do anything, anything for you. I would swim the deepest ocean just to be with you. I would do anything, anything for you. I would climb the highest mountain just to make your dreams come true. Baby, anything for you.

Seeing through his eyes

One of the things I love about being a parent is getting to see the world through my son’s eyes. He has such a fresh, new perspective on everything that I would consider commonplace or mundane. It brings new life into many things for me as I get to enjoy them with him. I am very thankful for this.

I was reminded recently of attending my cousins wedding when my son was 3. She is a beautiful young lady who married a fine young man. I am very happy for them both. We went to the ceremony and we sat off to the side, not knowing how a toddler would handle sitting through a wedding (thank the Lord for the iPhone). As the ceremony started our son looked back and saw my cousin in her dress. He looked at his mama and said, “Mama! Its a princess!” Now, that is exactly how every woman wants to feel at her wedding.

It was a great joy to watch her get married. I haven’t been able to spend a lot of time with that side of the family over the years as I am 12 years older than she is. However, I have enjoyed watching her grow up. Her dad and my aunt got together when she was three. I remember meeting her for the first time. She didn’t know what to think of me, but we became buddies pretty quick. I didn’t know that my own three year old would be watching her in her wedding all these years later. She was a cute kid. She is a beautiful woman. I am proud of her. She did look like a princess.

As I sat there watching I was taken back to my own wedding. I remember when the chapel doors opened up and I saw my bride in her dress for the first time. I cried. She was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I experienced a range of emotions in that moment: She looked beautiful, She was about to be mine, We were declaring our love to the world, We were promising to be together always, and so much more. The emotions rushed back at me as I remembered my bride, who also looked like a princess. She is more beautiful now as my Queen.

I am grateful for the perspective of my son. Seeing the world through his eyes is a privilege that I cherish…when he was three and all these years later. He saw a princess that day. It still makes me so thankful for him and my Queen.